Yup, that’s right, Mini Matto 2.0 has been cooking and is due to arrive August 23rd – although truth-be-told I would be completely fine with a 10 day early arrival like Parker! Hopefully, you’ll now forgive me for why I’ve been such a bad blogger. You see besides the all the busy-ness that surrounds the holiday season and planning/executing Parker’s 1st Birthday and working, I’ve also been dealing with first trimester tiredness and sickness. Any spare time I used to have (behind baby and work) would go to blogging and taking/uploading pictures but laying on the couch eating toast and trying not to vomit took up that space instead – my apologies. Thankfully I’m starting to see the light at the end of that tunnel. I will also say I’m thankful that honestly, overall, this 1st trimester was better compared to my 1st trimester with Parker. I was really nervous going into it not knowing how in the world I was supposed to take care of Parker while feeling like crap, but thankfully as long as I ate every 2-3 hours then the worst of my sickness wouldn’t come until evening after Parker was in bed and Eric was home to help.
But the dress is back! I debated whether to wear the same dress or not but I thought it would be fun to really be able to compare this pregnancy to Parker’s. The only difference is all my backgrounds may not be the same like before. I’m trying to make the picture taking as easy and low stress as possible so I actually keep up with it (and setting up the camera outside, at the right time of day with lighting and weather was problematic at times). Also, with Parker it’s much easier if I just take it in the house – plus it’s freezing cold right now and will be stifling hot during my third trimester so I’d rather stay indoors! I’ll have to do another post with a rundown of all my pics from my pregnancy with Parker but right now I do feel like I’m showing about a week or two earlier than I did with him. So not a huge difference – but definitely some. I gained a total of 36 pounds with Parker so I’m interested to see what this one brings. One difference is my pre-pregnancy weight this time was 10 pounds less than my pre-pregnancy weight with Parker so I’m not sure if that will make a difference in how much I gain in the end or not. So far I’ve gained like 6 pounds. Thankfully I really enjoyed being pregnant last time – so lets bring on the pounds!
So first, to clear the air, this baby was planned. Yes, we are those crazy people that actually decided to willingly do “2 under 2” because we’d much rather keep on rolling with the baby stage while we’re used to it instead of shelving it for awhile and coming back to it later. I would also like to use all my expensive baby items before they are outdated and/or recalled – haha. We also lucked out with Parker being a fabulous sleeper and overall good baby so I figured we better hurry and have number 2 in case he becomes a terror as a toddler and we change our minds. Of course I say my prayers daily that #2 is exactly like Parker and of course I also realize there is a fat chance of this and that we are probably going to get pay back for having an easy baby the first time – but I figure a little prayer never hurts.
I found out I was pregnant on December 17th, a few days before we left to go up to my parents for Christmas. I took the test while Eric was at work and immediately started scheming how I should tell him. I made this DIY Advent Calendar and so I thought it would be fun to put the test in one of the bags for him to open. The paper sacks I used on the advent calendar were all different sizes and it just so happened that the only bag left that the test would fit in was December 24th, Christmas Eve. We would get back to our house from my parents on Christmas Eve afternoon so I figured he would open it then before we left to go to spend Christmas Eve night with his extended family. So I took the test and put it in the bag. That night after Eric and I were already in bed my mind started racing and I started overanalyzing and basically became a crazy, worried pregnant lady. I all of the sudden got very nervous about holding onto this secret for almost a week. I couldn’t help but think, “what if something happened to Eric and he died never knowing he was going to be a dad again” and even “what if the world actually ends on the 21st?” So instead of completely hyperventilating I hopped out of bed and ran into the living room and took the test out of the bag and ran back into the room and woke Eric up and told him I had something to show him and I had to show him RIGHT. NOW. At this point it was still pitch black so I reached over to turn on my bedside light and handed him the test. I don’t even think he completely saw it before he goes “somehow, I knew that is what you were waking me up to show me.” So I very romantically told him I was afraid he was going to die and I would feel like a bad wife for not giving him the news to which he responded, “why do I have to be the one to die? Why couldn’t you be the one to die?” To which I responded, “Um, obviously if I died you would still more than likely find out that I was with child so it doesn’t matter if I’m the one to die.” After that sweet conversation we talked a litle bit about life with 2 (We need a bigger house! I need a mini van!) and went to sleep and kept our secret hidden all holiday season – which included me pouring a bottle of sparkling white grape juice into an empty wine bottle to fool all those we were celebrating New Year’s Eve with!
The timing of this pregnancy worked out to where I would be 11 weeks, 2 days at Parker’s 1st Birthday Party. Since all our closest friends and family would be attending we decided that would be a fun time to share our news. I definitely didn’t want to overshadow Parker’s day and be talking about #2 the entire party so we decided to wait until the end and have the last present Parker open be a gift from Eric and I and inside would be a shirt that says, “I’m the Big Brother.” The only downside with waiting until the end was that a few people did have to leave early – since obviously they didn’t know there was going to be a special surprise – so I felt bad that they were going to miss out. We had told Eric’s sister and her husband earlier in the week and so they were able to record the surprise for us and you can see the video below! I made sure to tell everyone before we opened it that it was a special gift from Eric and I to hopefully grab everyone’s attention in case they weren’t really paying attention (I mean watching other people open presents isn’t exactly the most exciting thing in the world – especially when Parker could really care less about what was going on). Needless to say everyone was surprised. In the video there is a good shot of Eric’s parents reaction. So much fun! Also, there is a mention of a vacation in the video. Eric’s mom was worried we would have to back out of our vacation this coming July to a beach in South Carolina but luckily we can still go – I’ll just be the 36 week preggo beach whale, don’t mind me!
And now here I am today – 13 weeks, 3 days and crossing my fingers for this morning sickness phase to officially end. Last week I had my second appointment with my OB. All went awesome!
Which timeout for a minute before I get back to my last appointment: at my first 9 week appointment I brought Parker (Eric wasn’t able to make it so it was just the two of us) and he was completely fine, even when I was sitting on the table waiting for the doc to come in, but out of nowhere he completely flipped out when the doctor had me lay down. He was in his stroller next to me – I could even hold his hand and the kid had cheerios – but he did not care. He did not like whatever it was the doc was doing to me and he was so scared and wouldn’t stop crying. I, of course, was slightly embarassed – like my OB must be thinking “you really want 2, eh?” – and I didn’t know what to do since Parker had never done anything like this before so I honestly didn’t know how to make it better except to pick him up but that obviously wasn’t an option. I was also a little sad because my OB then felt rushed and so I could barely see what was going on with the ultrasound and couldn’t hear the heartbeat at all over Parker’s cries so the moment I had built up of Parker and I looking lovingly at his little sister or brother was less than stellar to say the least! The sibling jealously begins! Luckily I did get a few picture print outs but for my 13 week appointment you can bet I left Parker with the grandparents!
So back to my 13 week appointment. I didn’t get another ultrasound (don’t get another one of those until around 20 weeks) but I did get to listen to the heartbeat and once he found it, it was an immediate relief for me to hear. The beginning stages of pregnancy are so nerve racking until you can rely on their little kicks to know everything is going ok. My OB even said, “Wow, this is one of the strongest heartbeats I’ve ever heard this early in a pregnancy – this is just great!” Which of course made me feel really good and reassured that everything is going as it should in there. Eric and I have decided (well actually I have decided and Eric is going along with it if it’s really what I want) to not find out the gender this pregnancy until delivery. Since this could be our last (we are going to have 2 before making the decision whether we want to go for 3) we may not have another chance to finding out this way and I really want to experience what it feels like to find out at birth. With our first pregnancy and everything seeming so overwhelming and new and surreal and unpredictable I just had to fill myself with all the knowledge and pre-planning I could with what was going on and that included knowing what we were having. The second time around I feel more at ease and am able to better wrap my head around what’s to come and so knowing the gender just isn’t something I feel the need to know. I also honestly would be equally as happy with a boy or a girl. Also, with Parker I had strong “boy feelings” and so I thought for sure I would have strong feelings one way or the other this time too, which would maybe make me want to find out early to prove myself right (or wrong) but I just really have no idea. All the major baby items we bought with Parker are gender neutral and with an August baby it’s going to be so hot the baby will only be in onesies anyway and Parker has plenty of gender neutral ones to get us through the beginning if it’s a girl so I’m not really worried about that stuff either. The only downside we’ve come across with not finding out early is then needing to be prepared with a boy and a girl name and so far that part is not going smoothly – haha. We have a middle name for a boy we like and a first name for a girl – so I guess we are getting there – but it’s definitely much harder than Parker!
Thanks for sticking around and hope to have more updates soon!